I have been thinking about heaven a lot lately...
February brings back some very painful memories for me. 4 years ago in February I was at the doctor's office every other day checking on babies that met Jesus before they ever met Terry and me. I think about them a lot. I think about our other two babies who went to be with Jesus long before they were born. I think the hard thing about miscarriage is that there is no tangible loss. It's the loss of a person you never met but loved from the moment you knew of their existence. It's the loss of dreams you had for them, the loss of never seeing their sweet face, or holding them. The thought of meeting them one day makes heaven seem that much sweeter.
I think about my grandparents who are in heaven. I can't wait to be reunited some day, however that may be. I never have had a clear picture of how exactly we'll know each other in heaven but I believe that we will. I was blessed to have amazing grandparents who loved their families and loved Christ. They were unbelievable.
I think about Terry's grandma who passed away shortly after we started dating. She was a huge part of his life and she was very sick when we started dating. I never got to meet her but she left quite a legacy with him. I hope we get to meet one day.
Finally, I think about meeting my Heavenly Father some day. I can only imagine that day. I know I love Madeline only a fraction of what He loves us and I am overwhelmed by the thought.
1 Corinthians 2:7-9 But we impart a secret and hidden wisdom of God, which God decreed before the ages for our glory. None of the rulers of this age understood this, for if they had, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory. But, as it is written,”What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him”