Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Without Borders...


Have you heard this song? I feel a little like this is my song. I have had several meetings with my doctor about my pcos and the prospect of having baby number two. I feel torn...I don't know if my mind and my heart could handle another failed pregnancy.  They think they have some ways to help prevent that, but of course there are no guarantees. We also feel a strong urge to at least look into adoption - we have talked about this for years so it's not new, it's just the timing is starting to feel like now. Maybe. We've taken the very first, tiniest step...just waiting to see where it leads. The whole realm of adoption scares me too...the unknown, the finances, the whole process, the potential for immense heartbreak.

Tonight I am heartbroken for a dear friend who I have bonded with over infertility, miscarriage, pcos, and grief. It's been the best and worst kind of friendship. Nothing has tested my faith the way this has...I know He has a plan. I just sometimes wish I could see it through the tears, the pain, and the grief. 

So if you could pray for her? Would you pray that our trust would be without borders in the coming months? Our hope is that God's will be sought, not ours.

I seem to always come back to my favorite verse...Be strong and courageous. The Lord your God is with you wherever you go...
Joshua 1:9 

 "Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)"


You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

**I realize this is much more serious than the things I normally post...I always want
to be able to look back on this journey. I know I will see God's hand in all of it.**

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